One More Time

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Muhammad Ibn Sharif Spandan

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Waiting for a day,

When I would be able to smile again,

Without any fear of losing it,

Anticipating hopelessly,

Trying not to give up,

One more time.

 

I swear I am not bad,

I wish I was not mad,

Cannot handle it,

Fighting a war against myself.

Maybe, leave me alone,

When I am down and numb.

Lest you spark my rage,

And I regret one more time.

 

All colours disappear,

Sometimes only blood-red appears,

Hopeless, worthless,

Internal turmoil,

Hell-fire burns inside me,

Fearing, I may explode,

Hysterically screaming inside,

Expressionless lips,

With no words and feelings.

Trying to hide from the other me,

One more time.

 

Wish I didn’t have to hold back,

All my troubles,

So that others are not burdened,

By my heavy sorrows,

One more time.

 

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Spandan is definitely the gentlest troublemaker, with hilarious incidents caused by him every now and then.